Hoping to Hold Baby In

We've had some developments which have me very worried that baby will make an early arrival. I've never gone into labor after carrying four full term pregnancies so, believe it or not, this is a new experience for me. I told my husband last night that I find it very irritating. With a "normal" pregnancy this would be no big deal but this is a one time thing. We have one chance to have everyone there that we want to be there. One chance, no do overs. A middle of the night delivery would not be ideal for our small children. A last minute delivery would mean that almost all of our family would miss the delivery and the chance to meet our baby. To complicate matters, my OB is also currently out of town and she has delivered all four of our children so far. I would be devastated if she could not deliver this little one. March 11th couldn't be any farther away today. Please pray that we will not need to deliver this little one prior to my scheduled March 11th c-section.

I feel the need to update this post now that I've had a chance to catch my breath. I realize that it is a luxury for me to know the date of my baby's death and that very few parents ever get that opportunity. It is selfish in a way for me to complain that baby might not come when I expect baby to come because in the world of babies, they usually come when they are ready to come which is not always when parents intend for them to come. I get that. Wyatt's birth was probably the best day of my life and part of that was knowing when he was going to be born and being able to make those preparations, painful though they were. That experience clouds my current perspective on this pregnancy and delivery and the expectations that I have based on that experience are hard to let go of.