This blog is my voice. It is for myself so that this time I can remember the experience through emotions, stories and daily happenings. Grief dulls and blurs and I want to remember my voice through this process. I hope that my story may someday help others on their own journeys through the loss of a child or children. That somehow by recording the good and bad others will see they are not alone and that what they are feeling is okay. There are few paths in life that have not been tread before our feet touch the ground. I am not the first person to have lost one child, or even two, and I will not be the last.
It is a story of courage, love, fear, worry, sadness, and even joy. There are days and moments which I am proud of and there are days and moments of which I am deeply ashamed. Sometimes those moments are inextricably intertwined. Losing a child is by far the most painful experience of my life.
This story is mine, but perhaps someday it will become part of someone else's.