Our youngest daughter, born a year and a little over a month after Eli has begun to talk about Eli. In fact, she's quite fixated on him in a way. So much so that I made her a little photo album of him which she cherishes. But it's more than that. She talks about Eli a lot. When he was a baby and how she held him. She talks about little fights they've had while playing or what kind of things they've been playing together. He talks to her and she will tell me what he says. It's always her voice that comes through but nonetheless it makes me wonder. Does she have a connection to Eli? Is this an imaginary friend?
It is bittersweet to hear his name so often. I love to hear it and it is nice to think that he may be nearby, visiting every now and then, taking care of the little sister he never knew. I don't know.
This year Dia de los Muertos really spoke to me. I dug into it a little deeper and found out that November 1st is often considered the Day of the Innocents and it is on that day that spirits of children and babies visit their loved ones. I baked my little ones the Pan de Muertos and miraculously we still have marigolds in our yard so I hope that yesterday at some point the breath of the wind may have been sweet little kisses blowing in the breeze. Maybe just maybe they were drawn to us for that one day because lately I have been missing them both so much.