|A picture colored for Wyatt by his second oldest sister which is surrounded |
by birthday gifts from years passed.
I realized that this is it now. We've always celebrated Wyatt's birthday with our girls in the same fashion each year but it all changed after Eli was born. The girls began to know Wyatt through experiencing Eli's birth and death. He became real to them in a way he wasn't before. Sadly, baby will never know her brothers like they do. She will only know them through pictures and video. She will have been spared the pain of their deaths but will never really understand the joy in their brief lives. As I was putting them to bed the other night our second oldest (six years old) told me that she still remembered when Eli died and how she and her older sister cried when they were told that he was dying. She was only five years old at the time (just turned five) yet it made such a huge impression on her. Her words were precious. I responded that I hope she always remembers that day and how she felt. I never knew such sadness as a child and have no idea the long term effects such an experience will have in her life. I can only hope she will carry her brothers in her heart as