Waiting with Baby

We are still waiting for baby to come, any day or next Friday, it is clearly not up to me. I find myself drawn to these words "it is written". I say this not from a "it is God's plan" perspective because I truly don't believe that. I do not believe that it is God's plan to take my children from me. Not the God that I know and love. It is just a feeling. Babies go in, babies come out. This baby's arrival, though still imminent, has been written. I will be there, my husband will be there and God willing, our children should be there. That is what really matters to me. I find myself visualizing this like a professional athlete visualizes the big game or race. Playing it over and over again. In my mind it is happy.